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Cameron Gallagher

Feb 14, 2019 5:09:14 GMT

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Post by Cameron Gallagher on Feb 14, 2019 5:09:14 GMT

When Cameron had stepped outside that morning to go to work he'd been nowhere near prepared for the emotional roller coaster that was Malcolm showing up. One reason he was so bothered by the whole thing was that he didn't know how he felt. It was overwhelming, and there was a reason why he'd spent years learning how to be numb.

He didn't talk to anyone about his family. It was a topic he often tried to avoid. He'd gone years with no contact with his family and he'd been fine. He'd put up a wall and created a haven for himself and now one of the few places he felt comfortable had been tainted by the tear-soaked outline of his brother entering the garage.

He'd spent most of the day with Malcolm, which was still hard to believe. He was upset, and afraid, and disappointed, and angry. The usually stoic and monotonous man made his way back to Phalanx, heading straight for Aisling's room. He was barely holding himself together by the time he knocked on her door and opened it, relief filling him as he observed that she was alone. There was no one else he would allow to see this, no one else he was prepared to face as a judge for how terrible of a brother he'd been.

"Sorry, uh, didn't give you much warning," he offered, keeping his eyes on the floor as he sat down, leaning his back against the door. He tried to find words but he couldn't. He didn't know what to say. His eyes were pink and wet and his hands shook as he combed his fingers through his hair. The pit in his stomach hurt-- it reminded him that pain was something he could get rid of so quickly.

"My brother came by work today. Brought me donuts and coffee," he finally managed to choke out. Aisling was the one person in the world he'd told about his relationship with his brother. She was the only person he could open up in front of, and even so, this was hard.

"I just... I don't get it," he said, his voice raising slightly. "I mean, if he's just gonna do this shit-- come back here and pretend he cares before leaving again-- then he should have just stayed away in the first place."

Aisling Maeve Donoghue

Aisling Maeve Donoghue

Mar 27, 2019 22:54:43 GMT

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Dream Manipulation

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Post by Aisling Maeve Donoghue on Mar 27, 2019 22:54:43 GMT

The best thing about a day off was the fact that she didn’t actually have to go anywhere. It assured that she had the day to focus on the things that she wanted and didn’t have to worry about the trivial aspect of life, which included seeing people spend twenty minutes trying to decide what kind of drink they wanted. That was all going to be coming to an end soon, though. Aisling had finally received a call from the used bookshop that had opened up down the street and it was the place that she intended to hide away for much of the time to avoid the general claustrophobia that seemed to manifest around a large group of people. The more that she could escape, the better she would end up feeling in the end. It wasn’t that the people at Phalanx were bad, but sometimes she just needed space to herself and the more that new kids began to show up, the less space it felt like she had.

Sitting on the floor of the room that she shared, Aisling held a pen to paper and began to sketch away, using an image from her laptop as reference. Drawing something that she took solace in and it had provided her with an outlet when it seemed like there was no one that would hear the words that she had to say. This particular sketch was a culmination of the things that she had seen in her nightmares, things that appeared to be a mixture of familiar creatures that she was trying to morph into one solid thing so that she might be able to face it and overcome it. That was easier said than done, especially once you got into the semantics of the dream world in which she was meant to have some kind of control over.

And, just as she started to work on the important details, a knock sounded at her door and it swung open before she had a chance to reply. Instinctively, she reached out and closed the laptop, eyes turning towards the intruder - who looked like an absolute mess. No words needed to be said in lieu of a greeting, nothing that needed her to ask how he was doing when it was so clearly written all over his face. The answer as that he was absolute crap and that was something that didn’t settle well with the dream manipulator. ”It’s alright,” she said, not tearing her eyes away from him as he sunk to the floor, his back against the door and therefore keeping out anyone else that might have tried to come in.

Aisling didn’t see Cam like this often, but when she did, she knew that the best thing to do was wait for him to simply tell her what was wrong. It was for that reason that she remained silent, practically watching his thought process as it worked over his face. Brother. Aisling knew all about Malcolm, about how he had left Cam. It was a feeling that she could relate to on some level and it made her all the more bitter that Mac had thought he had any right to just drop back in on his brother’s life when Cam was doing fine. This was going to be several steps backward.

Sighing heavily, she set her sketchpad down - upside down to prevent any prying eyes from looking - and repositioned herself so that she was better seated in front of her best friend. ”What the fuck did he want? Clearly he didn’t get the memo that donuts and coffee don’t just magically fix years worth of shit.”

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Notes: Sorry this is so late alksfjas

Cameron Gallagher

Apr 3, 2019 18:03:14 GMT

Phalanx

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Post by Cameron Gallagher on Apr 3, 2019 18:03:14 GMT

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trigger warning: mention of parental death

Aisling's friendship had been a blessing the entire time that Cam had been at Phalanx. He had never done anything to deserve such a kind, understanding, nonjudgmental person's approval. With each little thing that she did, whether she was silently letting him vent or offering advice, he appreciated every minute of her company. He didn't have anyone else to go to, not about this.

He didn't need Malcolm to make him feel worthless, but his brother's return certainly made it worse. It surprised Cameron how emotional he was, the way his body shook and the heat fell over his face. He'd lost both of his parents and had not felt his body betray him this harshly. Loss was something he was used to. Now he'd gained someone, someone important, and it stung.

Aisling sat in front of him and he kept his eyes on her, knowing when he looked at her that he was safe. Never once had she ever made him feel ashamed. Never once had she belittled his feelings.

"Shit, I'm sorry," he said, realizing what a mess he was. His peripheral vision picked up the face-down sketchbook at Ais's side and it occurred to him that she hadn't signed up for this. He hadn't wanted to dump this on her. He never planned to be that interruption to someone's productivity-- it just kind of happened.

Waiting for her to speak, his lungs held a breath as his head pounded.

And then she spoke, and it felt good. She understood. He didn't have to explain why his brother's arrival had become a catalyst for his self-destruction.

"He's back, Ais. He moved to NOLA," he said flatly. "Apparently, he's sick of being an only child." Apparently, he could make that decision whenever he wanted to.

Hesitance preceded his following observation.

"He was cool," he admitted. "I mean, he was trying. I didn't think he cared," he explained. That had been what surprised him the most. "But I'm still pissed at him." And that probably made him the definition of a shitty human being. How selfish could he possibly be?

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